Loner Diaries.

The patterns  on the sand,
May have been blown away.
The photos in twos,
All choked up in flames.
But tell me,
How do I make these emotions fade too?

Once upon a time,
There was you and I,
But the letters in between got their better share,
 I stagger home all alone,
Holding on to the bitter sweet memories,
Of a different tale when you were here.
All shadows tow in twos,
While mine reluctantly thrives in solitude,
The echoes still fresh in my mind,
Same voice,same girl,
I hope tomorrow brings less sorrow.

My Cinderella ran away,
I was not sober enough to do the chase thing,
But I do hope his cuddle keeps you as warm,
I closed my eyes to the unfortunate vision,
And held on to the glass slipper,
Hoping one day you'll need this shoe,
That once more I'll have you to me.

What's felt and what's seen are unparalleled emotions,
Things were perfect yesterday,
But they all lace the nightmare I have to live today.

I hope God made another to love me,
And I hope it won't hurt too.

the long texts ,IMs, emails.
 The dates, long night sexy calls....
 Flirty hours ,
 amazing smiles...
 they say new love is strong,
 but will It last for long???
 I have no idea love depreciates..
 or how we just lose it..
 things that used to matter, don't matter no more.
 sweetheart ,honey, darling..
 no longer appropriate ..
 more fights..
 lots of make up sex..
 but we both know. we're losing it. ..
 late night texts
 late night drinking sprees..
 Flirty hours,
 cheating spouses.
 holding On to the past when the present doesn't exist..
 the future a mirage!
 love turn sour...
 amazing smiles,
 teary lonely nights...
 betrayed trust.
 lost love.
 should we walk away?
 should we give it one last shot?
 can we learn to love again????

No honey, not tonight.

I saw the texts alright,
And the lipstick stains on your shirt,
The deceiving scent of another woman,
Not forgetting the lodging receipt,
The smirk on your face expecting a cuddle?
No honey, not tonight.

I have a whole lot on my desk,
The project's due tomorrow noon,
My boss needs this report ASAP,
Baby, you know I have to put food on the table,
You have to understand,
No honey, not tonight.

It's that time of the month,
I feel crappy inside out,
Don't touch me,
Don't kiss me,
Don't even think about it.
No honey, not tonight.

I have my finals in a week,
You know how bad I need this,
Love, I'll make it up to you the week after,
It's for our future,
No honey, not tonight.

No honey,
You are going to turn right back,
Because tonight is my night,
Halt all your excuses please,
And get my conjugal rights RIGHT!

Please love me..

I looked into the mirror,
Stared right through the scars,
Both the seen and unseen,
Once more the memories flood,
Each time it hurt,
Each time I pleaded.
I love you, you know.
Please teach me not to hurt,
Show me how not to cry,
Caress my pains just a little,
And tell me tales of love,
Love's that pure and content.
The more I stare,the less I see,
Less of me and more of you,
The ghost behind me, inside me,all over me, actually me.
The one thing I can't flee from,
Yearning for your embrace only results in the sting of your slap,
But I love you.
I had chances to scream,
To run and hide,
But every time it went in me,
I could only scream ' I love you '
With every stab I could only plead ' please love me'.
In a hundred realities,
And a thousand fantasies,
I'd find you and I'd choose you,
I know it's a suicide mission,
But I do hope, just like Jesus,
Mine will free love from thee.
Mirror on the wall,
Am I the fairest of his all?
Each time I felt pain,
Each time I cried,
I let you abuse me because I love you.
Please, please love me back.
I love you.

Lucia

The stars in her eyes,
Or is it the little pretty dimple by her smile,
So in love was she,
Swaying down the road,
Singing love melodies.
Of him and her,
Though hearts so far,
He said he couldn't stay
That he had to go far far away.
But no! Love doesn't know distance,
Because no miles can kill romance,
All alone in the woods,
With no one to eat her delicious foods.
Little pretty Lucia,the lonely bride,
Loneliness that would never overcome her pride,
She did wed in shame,
To a lad without a name.
The say love is blind,
But in it she found sight,
For she believed in Lucas,
The man behind her emotional fracas.

Your love.

Even when days were too grey,
And happiness was just a word,
When hope left such a void in my being,
Your love found me.
Times when anger and pretense filled me,
When nothing made sense,
The voice in my head constantly threatening,
Your love held me.
In the darkest paths,
In the strangest way,
One emotion drew images of brighter days,
Your love taught me how to,when to and why  to.
Lost in a maze,
It lit my way back,
Dug me out of hopelessness' pit,
With a thousand reasons not to fight,
Just one taught me what was right,
When doubt rose within me,
It drew out reason.
Love, you so freely gave to me.

Virginia the Virgin

There came a time,
In the land of whores and woes,
The need of a warrior,
Soldier of some sort arose,
And she was born,
Virginia the Virgin!
To be the very epitome of beauty and purity,
She had to be the one,
Though born under conditions not so legitimate,
Without a surname,
Virginia just had to be the ultimate hero.
No matter how many corners there are in life,
The planet isn't square neither rectangular,
And as fate and destiny always have their way,
Virginia the virgin
Became human