Red dotted pain.

While the pastor promised of all my scarlets kinda bleached to white,
You constantly turn my sheets deathly red,
Well all that's crimson ain't a sin,
But with you I can murder to halt the pain.

If I could erase your memory,
I'd make you skip the monthly scare,
And totally forget you were here,
And if only you were human,
I'd let the devil take your breathe away.

One plus one may equal two,
But with you around we'll just remain as odd,
As I toss and turn all night,
Curse and bless you I just might,
As they say; the beauty of a butterfly,
Is in it's freedom.

I try to embrace the beauty in you Red dotted pain,
The edge in my womanhood terrain.

 

Loner Diaries.

The patterns  on the sand,
May have been blown away.
The photos in twos,
All choked up in flames.
But tell me,
How do I make these emotions fade too?

Once upon a time,
There was you and I,
But the letters in between got their better share,
 I stagger home all alone,
Holding on to the bitter sweet memories,
Of a different tale when you were here.
All shadows tow in twos,
While mine reluctantly thrives in solitude,
The echoes still fresh in my mind,
Same voice,same girl,
I hope tomorrow brings less sorrow.

My Cinderella ran away,
I was not sober enough to do the chase thing,
But I do hope his cuddle keeps you as warm,
I closed my eyes to the unfortunate vision,
And held on to the glass slipper,
Hoping one day you'll need this shoe,
That once more I'll have you to me.

What's felt and what's seen are unparalleled emotions,
Things were perfect yesterday,
But they all lace the nightmare I have to live today.

I hope God made another to love me,
And I hope it won't hurt too.

the long texts ,IMs, emails.
 The dates, long night sexy calls....
 Flirty hours ,
 amazing smiles...
 they say new love is strong,
 but will It last for long???
 I have no idea love depreciates..
 or how we just lose it..
 things that used to matter, don't matter no more.
 sweetheart ,honey, darling..
 no longer appropriate ..
 more fights..
 lots of make up sex..
 but we both know. we're losing it. ..
 late night texts
 late night drinking sprees..
 Flirty hours,
 cheating spouses.
 holding On to the past when the present doesn't exist..
 the future a mirage!
 love turn sour...
 amazing smiles,
 teary lonely nights...
 betrayed trust.
 lost love.
 should we walk away?
 should we give it one last shot?
 can we learn to love again????